My body still shook with the sting of Brad’s words when I pulled into Nana’s narrow driveway. The street was dark, with the exception of a streetlight every three houses. Buried between Nana’s house and the neighbor’s nearly identical bungalow, I stayed in my car with the windows rolled up for some time. The night was chilly, but that wasn’t the reason to stay locked in my car. No, I hid away, letting my emotions run wild, like an animal kept in a cage too long.
Amidst my bitter tears, I screamed. My fists pounded the seat on either side of me. This way, no one needed to hear me.
“I said you weren’t worth my tears, damn it!” I yelled, glaring at my reflection in the rearview mirror. “You weren’t worth it! Not worth it!”
My voice went raw as the energy zapped from me. A few tears lingered on my splotchy cheeks. I sniffled and wiped my nose with the end of my coat, then rubbed the material over my eyes and the rest of my face.
I stared at myself again. “You’re just not worth it, Arianna. You could never be someone’s someone.”