Poetry Tuesday – Traitor

Don’t talk to me of kindness,

As if that’s true about me.

So many parts you don’t know,

Many more you don’t see.

My base nature is dim–

Self-preservation, childishness,

Impatience, self-seeking above all,

No maturation.

My smiles fall false

As my lips utter lies.

I pause only a moment, reflect,

As the shred of good in me dies.

And kind action–

An ulterior motive.

I seek your approval, your praise

Every time I share my gifts

On any cursed day.

Even as I write these words,

This I know is true:

I’m craving your pity,

But I’ll never care for you.



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Author: Cynthia "Cyndi" Hilston

Cynthia Hilston is a thirty-something-year-old stay at home mom of three young kids, happily married. Writing has always been like another child to her. After twenty years of waltzing in the world of fan fiction, she finally stepped away to do her debut dance with original works of fiction. In her spare time – what spare time? – she devours books, watches Doctor Who and Game of Thrones, pets her orange kitty, looks at the stars, and dreams of what other stories she wishes to tell.  

4 thoughts on “Poetry Tuesday – Traitor”

  1. Hmm,I think this is a very honest poem. I can relate to this in some parts, Like, I act like I care, I act kind and compassionate but there is evil behind every smile, there is a dark entity, lurking, waiting to be unleashed. I am fake happy all the time too. Nice poem, Cynthia, we have the same name. Ha ha.
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    1. Wow, thanks for reading and commenting. Yes, I wrote this when I was really feeling these emotions in the moment. I’m glad you could understand/relate. I wrote this three years ago and hesitated to share it with other until now. It’s very personal, you know? I’ll definitely check out your page.

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