Do you want to hear a story
That could be true?
Are you sure?
Do you realize just what
You will be subjecting yourself to?
Very well, I cannot stop you,
Just as I could not stop…
What could I not stop, you ask?
I could not stop my heart
From falling in love,
Despite knowing what I risked.
I could not stop my pain
From ever leaving me in peace
Because my mind insisted on
Remembering why I loved in the beginning.
No heart knows pure happiness,
Just as no mind knows pure sanity.
We all find ourselves lonely,
Wanting someone to hold us,
Even if we do not admit it to others.
I refuse to believe
That anyone would want
To live life entirely alone.
Every human being needs love,
Although sometimes that love
Is hard to find.
Some of us refuse that love
Once finding it
Because of fear of losing it,
Fear of suffering pain
Like I have,
But I did not refuse love.
I would rather know love
Just once in my life
And suffer forever
Than never know love
And live in hatred and fear.
To me, this is true courage.
To truly love is to truly live,
And to be daring enough
To truly live can only be achieved
By true courage of the heart.
–written in 2000 (when I was at a young age of exploring falling in love and figuring out what that meant)